Blooming in the Pause

  Trusting God's Plan


Life is a beautiful, chaotic whirlwind, isn't it? One minute we're caught up in the exhilarating rush of forward motion, with a to-do list that stretches on for miles and dreams that feel just within our grasp. We chase, we strive, and we hustle, believing that this is the only path to progress. And then, in a moment of quiet, God steps in and asks us to do the one thing that feels the most counterintuitive: to stop.

This past week, in the midst of the beautiful chaos of my life—packing up our old life and preparing for a new one in a new state—I felt a profound need to slow down and listen. I carved out some much-needed quiet time with God, and in that stillness, His voice cut through the noise of my anxieties and ambitions. It wasn't a demanding shout, but a gentle, graceful whisper. He didn't just give me answers; He gave me a new perspective for this next season.
What He told me was this: "To move forward and up, you must first put some things on pause."

The main thing He asked me to set aside was social media. It was a surprising and challenging command. The constant scrolling, the curated feeds, the endless notifications—these have been my white noise, the things I've turned to in moments of distraction. But God showed me that I cannot fully focus on Him or my children in the way He needs me to if I'm continually distracted by a digital world. This is about prioritizing presence over performance, and true connection over fleeting likes.
However, there was one beautiful, illuminating exception: The Double R Duo, the YouTube channel my daughter and I started. God made it clear that this channel is different. It’s an exception to the rule because it's not a distraction; it's a bridge. It's a vessel that will bring forth a light I can’t yet see, and most importantly, it's a vehicle for me and my daughter to connect on a deeper level. If you feel led to, please go like and subscribe to our channel. It would mean the world to us and would bring my daughter so much joy.

Moving with the Lord requires a radical kind of trust. It’s not about following a detailed, step-by-step map that He lays out for us. It’s about being willing to take a single step in faith, even when we don't know what's around the corner. The world tells us to hustle, to keep going at all costs, but God often calls us to a different kind of strength—the strength to stop when He says stop. This is the very definition of surrender. It reminds me of the words in Proverbs 3:5-6, "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths." My own understanding tells me to keep pushing, but my heart is learning to lean on Him and His divine wisdom.


This decision to "pause" extends to other areas of my life, including this very blog. I am not stopping forever, but I am choosing to be obedient and put it on hold until God gives me the green light to continue. It’s a painful but necessary step. It’s a stripping away of things that are good, but perhaps not God's best for me right now.

This leads me to another prayer I've been lifting up to Him. I have asked God to remove anything and everything from my life that is not good for me, no matter how painful the process may be. This includes habits, mindsets, and even people. It's a scary prayer to pray, but it's a necessary one. I am choosing to believe that God's pruning is for my ultimate growth. As John 15:2 says, "Every branch in me that does not bear fruit he takes away, and every branch that does bear fruit he prunes, that it may bear more fruit." The pruning can hurt, it can be uncomfortable, and it can feel like a loss. But the ultimate promise is a more abundant harvest. I am ready to face the pain of being refined because I know what's on the other side is a life more aligned with His will.

So, in this season of transition, of moving, and of stepping into the unknown, I am choosing to bloom in the pause. I am learning that growth isn’t always about adding more to our plates. Sometimes, it’s about subtracting, simplifying, and trusting that the one who holds the whole universe in His hands is also meticulously caring for the tiny, seemingly insignificant details of my life.

I may not be actively posting here for a while, but I will be here, keeping my mind and heart open, listening for His next instruction, and tending to the soil of my soul. I pray that this inspires you to find your own moments of pause and to have the courage to trust when God asks you to wait. Until then, I will keep blooming.

The Unveiled Mother 🌛 



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